Speechless

I feel naked,
So bare,
Like a deer caught in the headlights,
Frankly, scared.
I'm petrified around you,
I feel muted.
My soul taken away.
My thoughts frozen.
Every word to say flies from me,
My blue sky skills turn gray.
I don't know what to say to you,
I don't know what to do.
Muscle spasms force my body to take leaps and turns when you see me,
But it's only on the inside.
If you could see my feelings for you,
Would you turn away?
Leave me, dead, to rot,
On the cellar floor,
Repulsed by my feelings,
Rejected forevermore,
So instead of being me around you,
I remain mute like an African dog,
Pass glances in the hallway,
And try to be comfortable with the thought,
That You and I is just a fantasy,
A dream that won't come true,
So instead of saying just one word,
I'm speechless around you.